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Happy Saint Day to Maria Bertilla Boscardin!
This is what happens when you sleep more in an entire weekend than you would during a normal week… even after combining all the days of the week. You come up with weird analogies and have weird dreams. But I’m really here to talk about the former rather than the latter anyway.
So I’m preparing for my braces and whatnot (I know, a little late in life, but better late than never?) and since I have more teeth than my mouth is able to hold, I am forced to extract some teeth (no, this doesn’t include the wisdom teeth I had previously removed). Through all the sleeping and being drugged up this weekend, I realized that this whole process of extraction and the moving of my teeth is a lot like losing someone you love.
Hear me out: You pull out a tooth (or two… or in my case, four) and it hurts like a bitch. It leaves a weird hole in your mouth, a hole that you never had before (minus the ones from your childhood years). And after you’ve gotten the tooth pulled out, it hurts, a lot. It hurts so much that all you want to do is be drugged up for days until the pain subsides or is entirely gone. Even when the pain is gone, you’ve still got that big gap in your mouth. And then the braces start to work. They start pulling the surrounding teeth to fill up the hole. Years later, after the whole process is done, you barely notice that you once had teeth there.
Sound a little familiar? Whether it’s the loss of a friend, a family member, or someone you once loved, you always feel emptier. The pain hurts for days, even for weeks or months and all you want to do (or most people anyway) is erase the pain; make it go away. Eventually, everything else in your life starts to fill in that gap, makes you feel as if you were whole again. Sure, you’ll never be able to replace that hole, or fill it up with something you once had, but with time, you forget that you had lost something so precious to you.
Now, this isn’t typical of every relationship, every friendship, or every bond, but it felt awfully similar. Just be glad I left all the bloody and more painful details out.
Posted under: Life
This might actually be an updated post now. I feel bad for not having blogged in the last month. Well, blogged here anyway because if you’ve been stalking (or just had a lot of time on your hands), then you would have noticed that my daily journal (or semi-daily) has been updated more frequently.
What’s the hold up? Well, if most of you know or have caught on, I like to write what I would consider a good post. A post that provokes thinking in a way that takes you outside of your usual bubble. However, as I’m about to briefly explain, I’ve been behind on being able to do that. Now, don’t get me wrong, the ideas have been coming up into my head, but I feel as if the thoughts aren’t honed well enough yet to be shared with the general public.
So yes, I am here explaining my partial absence with the online community. I’m still behind on replying to comments and visiting their respective websites. The semester started a little more than a month ago and although my classes aren’t that time consuming, my social events are. I’ve decided to join a culture club, more specifically, the Vietnamese Student Association. I’m connecting with people of a similar background and having a good time. I’ve also found myself a boyfriend too. Yes, I know, big step for me considering how the last one had painfully ended. But despite all the nasty past, I’m happy. Other things have been rocky, but at the moment, I’m happy. And I’m even happier knowing that I’ve found someone to bring the happy back. It’s just one big happy cycle.
I feel as if this time is such a busy time. I’ve got social events, school, boyfriend, and politics. Oh God, the politics. I’ve decided that I can’t stand to watch either debate. The Presidential debate consisted of two bickering men and the Vice Presidential debate was ridiculous. No candidate gave a straight answer and it was too frustrating to watch.
Anyway, this is midterm weekend and I need to get back to studying. But before I go, I will leave you with this question: Should you be looking for someone that makes you want to be a better person or should you invest more time to find that part in yourself that makes you want to be a better person?
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